I spent the afternoon with my Grams at the hospital today. She has had a stroke and things aren't looking really good for her. Of course she still has dementia and each time she wakes up she is confused. She has never been one to take meds and she doesn't like being ill. She told me several times today that she is okay and just wants to go home. The stroke wasn't massive but it was big enough to have messed up her left side. She can barely use her left arm, hand and leg. This means she can't walk right now. She can't move herself about either. She is so very confused! She doesn't like the IV and has pulled it out. This has caused her to have her right arm restrained. She doesn't like that at all! She asks over and over for us to take it off! When she doses off she asks in her sleep for us to please take it off. She can't remember that she has had a stroke and if she isn't watched carefully she would probably try to get up out of bed and walk out of the place. Of course she wouldn't make it far at all and would probably fall causing more injury.
I don't know if she will ever get to go home again or not. The Doctors found two blood clots that cannot be removed. She has an irregular heart beat and that seems to mean that she will get more clots. We could have her for another year or another hour.
None of us know our time. But her time seems to be so much shorter now.
She has a large family, 4 children, 10 or more grandchildren, 20 or more great grandchildren and 3 great great grandchildren. We have never all been under the safe roof at the same time. That would be such a wonderful sight! We are all scattered all over the Country now, Oregon, Colorado, Pennsylvania to name a few of the states that come to my mind......I would like to meet each of them. Take their picture and see how much family resemblance there is from all the different branches. Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, 1st Cousins, 2nd Cousins and even 3rd Cousins! Kita and Eric were able to make a quick visit at the hospital and Grams got to meet Alex. I didn't have my camera with me but Mattie took a few pics with her phone. I hope to get copies of them and I will add them to this blog later if I do.
Grams looked so small in her hospital bed as I was leaving. She was worried about her purse and that things were locked up. We all tried to assure her that we would take of things and to not worry. It would help if she could remember but she can't.
In all of this she hasn't lost herself completely. She will try to trick you to undo her arm restraint. She is just as stubborn and unchangeable as ever. When I answered a question of her's today that she didn't like, she asked me..... "Why are your eyes so brown". Even with my heart hurting she can make me laugh!
I don't know if she will ever get to go home again or not. The Doctors found two blood clots that cannot be removed. She has an irregular heart beat and that seems to mean that she will get more clots. We could have her for another year or another hour.
None of us know our time. But her time seems to be so much shorter now.
She has a large family, 4 children, 10 or more grandchildren, 20 or more great grandchildren and 3 great great grandchildren. We have never all been under the safe roof at the same time. That would be such a wonderful sight! We are all scattered all over the Country now, Oregon, Colorado, Pennsylvania to name a few of the states that come to my mind......I would like to meet each of them. Take their picture and see how much family resemblance there is from all the different branches. Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, 1st Cousins, 2nd Cousins and even 3rd Cousins! Kita and Eric were able to make a quick visit at the hospital and Grams got to meet Alex. I didn't have my camera with me but Mattie took a few pics with her phone. I hope to get copies of them and I will add them to this blog later if I do.
Grams looked so small in her hospital bed as I was leaving. She was worried about her purse and that things were locked up. We all tried to assure her that we would take of things and to not worry. It would help if she could remember but she can't.
In all of this she hasn't lost herself completely. She will try to trick you to undo her arm restraint. She is just as stubborn and unchangeable as ever. When I answered a question of her's today that she didn't like, she asked me..... "Why are your eyes so brown". Even with my heart hurting she can make me laugh!
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